Shadow On A Tightrope 30 Year Celebration!

November 9, 2013 at 9:16 pm | Posted in 1980's, 1990's, 2013, Activism, Anorexia, Aunt Lute Books, Bailey Coy Books, blog carnival, Blogging, Body, Body Image, Body Narrative, book, Books, Bulimia, Bullying, Discrimination, discussion, Equality, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, feminist, Gastric Bypass, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, identity, Kristin Bell, library, Magic, Plus Size, Psychology, Reading, Scales, self-care, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Shadow on a Tightrope, Shame, Supersize, Support System, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry, weightloss surgery | Leave a comment
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Kaweria (mom) and Nayeli (daughter) reading “Shadow on a Tightrope”

This year is the 30th anniversary of the publishing of Shadow on a Tightrope by Aunt Lute Books, and there is a blog carnival this week for the book! I am so happy to be participating. I can’t think of a lot of books that have changed my life, but I would say that this one has. I was about 19 years old when I first picked up SOAT. I was bulimic and fat, and had always been told that being fat was the worst thing in the world to be. In high school I had starved myself down to a “normal” weight, but I gained back some of the weight by the time I was 19 when I was trying to starve myself again. I remember being in Seattle at Bailey Coy Books (now out of business) where I found the book, and later reading the book during my lunch break at the University Bookstore where I worked for a short time. I could not believe what I was reading! For one thing, there were these other fat people out there! Who knew?!? And some of them had endured horrendous surgeries that I didn’t know existed back then (which are all too common now). AND then they were saying that fatness wasn’t the horrid devil wrapped in bacon strips that I had always been told it was! WHAT?!? Did I read that correctly? I didn’t know it at the time, but the book forever changed my outlook on fat and fat activism. Maybe not all at once, but it all stayed with me. It found a little space in my brain, and when everyone else and all of society screamed at me to be thin I remembered the words in SOAT. I remembered (for once) that this experience of being fat was not something I had to do alone, and even though I didn’t stop the bulimia for years, and hated myself for being fat a lot, the messages from SOAT were there working their magic. And, I really think it was like magic that these words in a book could so profoundly alter my view of the world. Years later I stopped the bulimia, and I now consider myself to be a fat activist of sorts, and SOAT is still helping me to figure out how to live with my body and how to live with a world that hates my body. I am forever indebted to Aunt Lute and all of the people who put the book together. I hope that this book can get in the hands of more fat people just so they know that it doesn’t have to be like this, they don’t have to hate themselves, and they aren’t alone.

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BTW: Save Your Pennies and Make Change! :)

October 28, 2012 at 8:50 pm | Posted in Bipolar, Bring Change 2 Mind, Collection, Depression, Kristin Bell, Licoln, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Pennies, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psychology, Psychosis, schizoaffective disorder, Schizophrenia, Shame, stigma | Leave a comment

Attach this handy printout to a jar and take it into work and/or keep one on hand at home! Change your mind about mental illness and make change at the same time! :)

 

Schizowhat? Website!

April 20, 2012 at 1:29 am | Posted in Acceptance, Activism, Kristin Bell, Lunatic, Mental Health, Mental Illness, neuroscience, Problems, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psychiatry Denial, Psycho, Psychoactive Substances, Psychology, Psychosis, schizoaffective disorder, Schizophrenia, schizowhat?, Shame, stigma, Stories | 1 Comment

I was just informed of this great project called Schizowhat? that is a website aimed at raising awareness about schizophrenia. For those of you who don’t know, I have schizophrenia. I was first diagnosed when I was about 15/16 years old. I hope others of you who are interested or in some way impacted by schizophrenia will check out the website and contribute! Let’s fight the stigma! Yay!

It Gets Better…

September 25, 2010 at 12:15 am | Posted in Acceptance, Activism, Allies, Bisexual, Bullying, Cool, Dan Savage, Depression, Discrimination, Dyke, Equality, Fag, Friends, Gay, GBLT, Hate, Homo, Homophobia, Homosexual, Hope, Kids, Kristin Bell, Lesbian, Mental Health, Protest, Queer, Same Sex, Savage Love, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Shame, Suicide, Support System, Surviving, The Stranger, Trannie, Trans, Violence | Leave a comment

Steps To Body Acceptance #6

December 4, 2007 at 2:45 am | Posted in Acceptance, Activism, Allies, Anonymous, Anorexia, Anti-anxiety meds, Anti-depressants, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Denial, Dental Care, Depression, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Extended Plus Size, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Food, Friends, Hate, Kristin Bell, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mirror, Obsessions, Plus Size, Scales, Secrecy, Shame, Steps To Body Acceptance, Support System, Thin, Vegan, Vegetarian, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | Leave a comment

santared

Well, it is that time of year: the holidays. I know that for people with eating disorders this can seem like the most terrible time of year. Whether you are facing holiday get-togethers with family, friends or co-workers or are just tempted by the food that is normally around, there is no doubt about it: if you have food issues these times will be hard. The thing I want to say about this is Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #6…

Damn Those Cute Starbucks Things!

November 11, 2007 at 1:58 pm | Posted in Bears, Blogging, Collection, Cool, Cute, Evil Empire, Fair Trade, Humor, Kristin Bell, Shame, Shopping, Spontaneous, Starbucks, Starbucks Bears, Stuffed Animals | 6 Comments

strbxbears

Okay. It is time for me to admit that I just have no control over my senses, pocketbook or body when it comes to cute things. I am beholden to all things cute. If there was a field of landmines between me and something really really cute I would probably make a go for walking through the field of landmines to get the cute thing…well, especially if it was one of my cats! Continue Reading Damn Those Cute Starbucks Things!…

Common Fallacies of Psychiatry Deniers

September 20, 2007 at 8:53 pm | Posted in Acceptance, Amblify, Anti-depressants, Anti-psychotics, Bipolar, Buspar, Denial, Depakote, Depression, drugs, Education, Geodon, Haldol, Haldol DEC, Health, Kristin Bell, Lithium, Lunatic, MAO Inhibitors, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Stabilizers, Paxil, Prescription Meds, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psychiatry Denial, Psycho, Psychosis, Schizophrenia, Scientology, Seroquel, Shame, Support System, Surviving, Trazadone, Trilifon, Video, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Zyprexa | 12 Comments

rob

The following videos are by Rob aka deidzoeb, a person from YouTube. His wife, Melinda, aka melsbasketcase, is also a YouTuber and Melinda has schizophrenia. She does well when she is properly medicated, but a lot of people go on her channel and try to convince her that her drugs are poison and that she should stop taking them. I hope you will watch all three of Rob’s great videos about Psychiatry Denial. He does a great job of showing how psychiatry deniers are simply wrong and how they try to take choice away from people with serious mental illnesses. I have included all three videos here. Please click to find them. Continue Reading Common Fallacies of Psychiatry Deniers…

Steps To Body Acceptance #4

August 28, 2007 at 12:15 am | Posted in Acceptance, Allies, Anorexia, Anti-depressants, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Denial, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Family, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Figure, Food, Friends, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Mental Health, Obsessions, Plus Size, Scales, Secrecy, Shame, Steps To Body Acceptance, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 4 Comments

karate

I don’t really know how many of these steps there are going to be. I kind of just write about them as they pop into my head even though I may have given them some more thought previously. Anyway, on with step number four. Step number four has to do with dealing with the people you may encounter in your life and the people who are important to you. Just like Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #4…

Fat Fat Fattie Fatterson Fattie Fatpants!

August 22, 2007 at 1:29 am | Posted in Acceptance, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Hate, Health, Kristin Bell, Mental Health, People, Plus Size, Problems, Shame, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 14 Comments

fat

Okay, seriously, if I hear ONE more person tell me that Continue Reading Fat Fat Fattie Fatterson Fattie Fatpants!…

Body Narrative: It Is MY Fat Body!

August 13, 2007 at 11:43 pm | Posted in Anorexia, Anti-depressants, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Body Narrative, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Depression, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Figure, Hate, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Life, Measurements, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, People, Problems, Scales, Secrecy, Self, Shame, Stress, Surviving, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 3 Comments

nakedtyping

Well, you can’t see me, but I decided to write this body narrative completely naked except for the computer that is attached to my fingers! Let me tell you why I’m writing this naked. Am I a nudist? No, absolutely not. I really like to wear clothes most of the time. I just wanted to say a little something about being naked, and I thought the best way to do that would to actually be naked while I’m writing this…just so whoever reads this will invariably have to imagine a fat naked woman laying on a towel in her bed typing into her laptop computer. OH MY GOD! Continue Reading Body Narrative: It Is MY Fat Body!…

Steps To Body Acceptance #3

August 12, 2007 at 2:35 am | Posted in Anorexia, Anti-depressants, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Counselor, Depression, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Figure, Grrls/Women, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Measurements, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mirror, Obsessions, Problems, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psycho, Scales, Secrecy, Self, Shame, Social Worker, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Therapist, Thin, Uncategorized, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 9 Comments

shamegirl

For people who don’t have eating issues (hello? are there really any people out there without eating issues?) anyway, as I was saying for people without eating issues all of this body acceptance stuff must sound completely bizarre! I agree. We shouldn’t be so messed up about our bodies, but we are. So, on with step number three. For step number three Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #3…

US Air Force Shows Lame-Assness

August 9, 2007 at 6:24 am | Posted in Air Force, Boys/Men, Discrimination, Grrls/Women, Hate, Kristin Bell, Lame-assness, Misogyny, People, Rape, Safety, Sex Offender, Shame, Surviving, US Gov't vs Lame-assness, US Government, Violence | Leave a comment

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Well, I cannot believe this one! I’m trying to limit the points for the US versus lame-assness game to one point per incident, but these incidents are just so bad I feel like awarding more points. In this incident the United States Air Force is Continue Reading US Air Force Shows Lame-Assness…

Ambushed at the Starbucks!

August 9, 2007 at 2:18 am | Posted in Ambush, Body Image, Discrimination, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Kristin Bell, Life, Lunatic, People, Shame, Starbucks, Stress, Surviving, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 10 Comments

ambush

I guess it just isn’t my day today, or maybe it is. I have something concrete to write about. A blazing horrible example of fat hatred and overzealous skinny people trying to convert me into one of them. Here’s the story: I went to Starbucks Continue Reading Ambushed at the Starbucks!…

Steps To Body Acceptance #2

August 3, 2007 at 11:08 pm | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Counselor, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Life, Measurements, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Problems, Secrecy, Self, Shame, Social Worker, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Therapist, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 2 Comments

tennis player

Okay, I do have to warn you that this advice is not for the weak of heart. I’m not an anorexic nutritionist giving you advice about how you can lose weight and then love yourself. I have my own baggage and my own prejudices. Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #2…

Steps To Body Acceptance #1

August 2, 2007 at 3:24 am | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, Kristin Bell, Life, Measurements, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Problems, Scales, Secrecy, Shame, Smash It, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Thin, Tips & Tricks, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 12 Comments

ballerina

Well, I thought I’d create a new series here. Not only am I a crazy person, but I also have battled with eating issues for most of my life, well, all of my life. I can’t remember a day when “my weight” wasn’t a topic of conversation or a point of shame. Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #1…

Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #4

July 31, 2007 at 2:43 am | Posted in Allies, Amblify, Anti-depressants, Anti-psychotics, Bipolar, Buspar, Counselor, Depakote, Depression, Discrimination, Effexor, Family, Friends, Geodon, Haldol, Haldol DEC, Haldol Decanoate, Kristin Bell, Lithium, MAO Inhibitors, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Stabilizers, Navane, Paxil, People, Problems, Prozac, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psycho, Psychosis, Risperdal, Schizophrenia, Seroquel, Shame, Social Worker, Support System, Surviving, Therapist, Tips & Tricks, Trazadone, Trilifon, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Zyprexa | Leave a comment

braindiagram

I guess I sort of tipped you off to what I was going to be talking about in tip number three. Well, this next tip cannot be underestimated. It is really important no matter who you are, but for people with mental illness it is extremely important. Continue Reading Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #4…

Chunky Dunk: Yah!

July 29, 2007 at 1:08 pm | Posted in Allies, Anorexia, Binge Eating, Bisexual, Bulimia, Chunky Dunk, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Cute, Discrimination, Dyke, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Equality, Fag, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Friends, Fun, Health, Homo, Homosexual, Kristin Bell, Lesbian, Life, Pansexual, Queer, Relaxation, Same Sex, Shame, Swimming, Thin, Trannie | 2 Comments

chunkydunk

Well, I mentioned the other day that I might try going to Chunky Dunk and I did end up going. It was so much fun! I actually started to feel Continue Reading Chunky Dunk: Yah!…

Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #1

July 25, 2007 at 1:24 am | Posted in Amblify, Anti-depressants, Anti-psychotics, Bipolar, Buspar, Depakote, Depression, Effexor, Geodon, Haldol, Haldol DEC, Haldol Decanoate, Health, Injections, Kristin Bell, Lithium, MAO Inhibitors, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Stabilizers, Navane, Paxil, Problems, Prozac, Psych Meds, Psychiatry, Psycho, Psychosis, Risperdal, Schizophrenia, Seroquel, Shame, Surviving, Tips & Tricks, Trazadone, Trilifon, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Zyprexa | 9 Comments

brain

Well, I think I know a thing or two about having a mental illness, since I’ve been dealing with this damn stuff since I was 15-years-old. So, why not share a few tips and tricks I’ve learned along the way? I guess I’ll just put up these when I have time. Here is the number one thing I’ve learned: Continue Reading Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #1…

On Being Thin…

July 22, 2007 at 12:11 pm | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Problems, Secrecy, Shame, Thin, Video | Leave a comment

I wanted to put a link up to this video. I don’t think it fits in with YouTube’s guidelines, so it may be taken down at any time. I’ll try to Continue Reading On Being Thin……

Are We More Than What We Weigh?

July 18, 2007 at 1:24 am | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Cute, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Equality, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Hate, Health, Kristin Bell, Obsessions, Purpose, Shame, Thin | 4 Comments

cutefat

Hello to everyone who visits! Thank you for stopping by! Today I think I’ll talk some more about fatness and why I use the term fat instead of obese or overweight. There was a time when I only used the term overweight. I was afraid of using the term “fat” because it was like a four letter word to me. I’ve also never Continue Reading Are We More Than What We Weigh?…

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