Shadow On A Tightrope 30 Year Celebration!

November 9, 2013 at 9:16 pm | Posted in 1980's, 1990's, 2013, Activism, Anorexia, Aunt Lute Books, Bailey Coy Books, blog carnival, Blogging, Body, Body Image, Body Narrative, book, Books, Bulimia, Bullying, Discrimination, discussion, Equality, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, feminist, Gastric Bypass, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, identity, Kristin Bell, library, Magic, Plus Size, Psychology, Reading, Scales, self-care, Self-Harm, Self-Injury, Shadow on a Tightrope, Shame, Supersize, Support System, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry, weightloss surgery | Leave a comment
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Kaweria (mom) and Nayeli (daughter) reading “Shadow on a Tightrope”

This year is the 30th anniversary of the publishing of Shadow on a Tightrope by Aunt Lute Books, and there is a blog carnival this week for the book! I am so happy to be participating. I can’t think of a lot of books that have changed my life, but I would say that this one has. I was about 19 years old when I first picked up SOAT. I was bulimic and fat, and had always been told that being fat was the worst thing in the world to be. In high school I had starved myself down to a “normal” weight, but I gained back some of the weight by the time I was 19 when I was trying to starve myself again. I remember being in Seattle at Bailey Coy Books (now out of business) where I found the book, and later reading the book during my lunch break at the University Bookstore where I worked for a short time. I could not believe what I was reading! For one thing, there were these other fat people out there! Who knew?!? And some of them had endured horrendous surgeries that I didn’t know existed back then (which are all too common now). AND then they were saying that fatness wasn’t the horrid devil wrapped in bacon strips that I had always been told it was! WHAT?!? Did I read that correctly? I didn’t know it at the time, but the book forever changed my outlook on fat and fat activism. Maybe not all at once, but it all stayed with me. It found a little space in my brain, and when everyone else and all of society screamed at me to be thin I remembered the words in SOAT. I remembered (for once) that this experience of being fat was not something I had to do alone, and even though I didn’t stop the bulimia for years, and hated myself for being fat a lot, the messages from SOAT were there working their magic. And, I really think it was like magic that these words in a book could so profoundly alter my view of the world. Years later I stopped the bulimia, and I now consider myself to be a fat activist of sorts, and SOAT is still helping me to figure out how to live with my body and how to live with a world that hates my body. I am forever indebted to Aunt Lute and all of the people who put the book together. I hope that this book can get in the hands of more fat people just so they know that it doesn’t have to be like this, they don’t have to hate themselves, and they aren’t alone.

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Love Your Peaches Dress Came Today!

January 14, 2013 at 4:35 pm | Posted in 1XL, 2013, 2XL, 3XL, 4XL, 5XL, 6XL, Body, chubby, Clothes, clothing, Dress, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, for sale, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, Love Your Peaches, modeling, Plus Size, Shopping, Supersize | 6 Comments

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I love my new “Love Your Peaches” dress! I love the store. I can’t always afford it, but I got this on sale. Yippee! She carries sizes 1x to 6x and can make slight alterations to the clothing to fit your needs! :) Here’s the link: http://www.loveyourpeaches.com/ . If you get the chance, feel free to support her small business. She does a wonderful job and I hope she keeps making clothes for us chubb-chubbs! :) UPDATED: Thought I should add a photo with a close-up of the fabric. It is pretty cute fabric I think! :)

Some New Pillows!

November 24, 2012 at 2:34 am | Posted in 2012, Angelica Kauffman, Art, art history, artist, arts & crafts, body parts, Cat Break, Cats, craft, creative, cuddle, Cute, Decorating, design, design your own fabric, drawings, fabric, fabric design, feline, female, feminist, for sale, Fun, funny, gender, Goofy, Grrls/Women, Handmade, Happy, Humor, In Other Words, Kristin Bell, Magic, Mary Moser, pillow, Pillows, plushies, Portland, sewing, sewn | Leave a comment

Here are some new pillows I’ve been working on. I’m going to be selling on consignment at In Other Words in Portland, Oregon. I’m pretty excited about it! The first one is Henry Miller Magic cat with red stripes. The second one is Judy the Utie(rus) with minis on the back. The third one is a pillow of Angelica Kauffman and Mary Moser having tea.

Henry Miller Magic Cat Pillow

Henry Miller Magic Cat side view

Judy the Utie(rus) pillow

Judy the Utie(rus) backside

Angelica Kauffman and Mary Moser Having Tea pillow

Back of Angelica and Mary pillow

 

 

 

Momiji Book Nerd Girls!

March 9, 2012 at 11:10 pm | Posted in Books, Colorful, Cute, dolls, Fun, Grrls/Women, Kawaii, Kristin Bell, library, Momiji, Nerd | 1 Comment

Some pics of my Momiji Book Nerd Girls. They are so sweet! :) Click the pics to enlarge. :)

Yah, Barbie Totally Needs to Lose Weight!

February 18, 2011 at 2:10 pm | Posted in Anorexia, Barbie, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Children, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, dolls, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Figure, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, ModelMuse, Obsessions, Plus Size, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 3 Comments

WHAT?!? Yes, it is true. They now make an even skinnier Barbie! Apparently she wasn’t thin enough, so they have flattened her out some more. It is okay with me, as long as they make a FAT BARBIE, which they never will do! It is hard to say how much Barbie really warps young minds, but I do think she has had some influence over generations of girls. There have been endless discussions about the body image of Barbie of course, but Barbie is only a part of what the issue is. While Americans get fatter, body image issues get more complex and the Hollywood image of beauty gets thinner and thinner. I guess I can’t be too surprised by Barbie’s new look, but did Barbie really have to go there?!? At least her boobs are smaller, but the dolls are seriously anorexic. Barbie was so thin and out of proportion before. What good could come of anorexic Barbie dolls I ask you?

So…the Bulimia.

November 30, 2008 at 6:37 am | Posted in Acceptance, Anorexia, Anxiety, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Denial, Depression, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Extended Plus Size, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Food, Grrls/Women, Health, Kristin Bell, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Plus Size, Psychiatry, Scales, Steps To Body Acceptance, Supersize, Support System, Surviving, Teeth, Thin, Weight, Weightloss | 1 Comment

Well, not only am I a schizophrenic, but I’m a regular girl type. The kind of girl you all know. Which means that growing up I had regular girl problems (not that eating disorders are girl-only problems), not just schizophrenic girl problems. I was a chubby kid. And then as a teenager I went on a crash diet right around the time I first started losing touch with reality. I essentially starved myself so the weight would come off, but then, my hair started to come off too. And, eventually Continue Reading So…the Bulimia….

Another Fat People Shopping Resource

August 26, 2007 at 5:00 am | Posted in Acceptance, Blouse, Body, Body Image, Boys/Men, Clothes, Dress, Extended Plus Size, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Figure, Gown, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, Pants, Plus Size, Shirt, Shopping, Supersize, Swim Suit, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | Leave a comment

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I just found this page with a LOT of links to shopping sites for fat people (women and men). Some of these sites I have never even heard of. And there is Continue Reading Another Fat People Shopping Resource…

Wow! Woman Within Sale!

August 25, 2007 at 7:12 am | Posted in Blogging, Body, Cheap, Clothes, Dress, Extended Plus Size, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Figure, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, Low Prices, Pants, Plus Size, Shirt, Shopping, Supersize, Swim Suit, Trannie, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | Leave a comment

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I don’t know if anyone out there will get this in time or if you will care, but Woman Within is having a HUGE sale this weekend! Actually now thru Tuesday. In the plus size world spending $7 for a sweater is Continue Reading Wow! Woman Within Sale!…

Fantastic Belts And Belt Buckles!

August 23, 2007 at 1:51 am | Posted in Belt Buckles, Belts, Body, Boys/Men, Clothes, Extended Plus Size, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, Las Vegas, Leather, Measurements, Plus Size, Shopping, Supersize, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 3 Comments

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Well, I hadn’t intended my blog to be only about fat things. hehe. I’ll get back to other stuff later. I just wanted to let you know that I FINALLY found a belt! I haven’t exactly been actively searching for one, but I can never find them to fit me UNTIL NOW! They also sell belts for regular size people. I found this great place online Continue Reading Fantastic Belts And Belt Buckles!…

Fat Grrl Shopping: Sizes 12-44

August 20, 2007 at 11:19 pm | Posted in Acceptance, Body, Body Image, Clothes, Dress, Eating Disorders, Extended Plus Size, Fashion, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Figure, Grrls/Women, Kristin Bell, Pants, Plus Size, Shirt, Shopping, Supersize, Swim Suit, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 21 Comments

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Let’s face it, there aren’t a lot of places to shop for clothes if you wear anything over size 12 and even fewer places to shop if you wear over size 28! So, I just wanted to talk about a few of the places that I have found for clothing and what I do and don’t like about those places. I hope this helps anyone who is looking for something to wear. I will mostly be talking about places that carry up to size 34/38/44. Continue Reading Fat Grrl Shopping: Sizes 12-44…

Steps To Body Acceptance #3

August 12, 2007 at 2:35 am | Posted in Anorexia, Anti-depressants, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Counselor, Depression, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Figure, Grrls/Women, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Measurements, Medicine, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mirror, Obsessions, Problems, Psych Meds, Psychiatrist, Psychiatry, Psycho, Scales, Secrecy, Self, Shame, Social Worker, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Therapist, Thin, Uncategorized, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 9 Comments

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For people who don’t have eating issues (hello? are there really any people out there without eating issues?) anyway, as I was saying for people without eating issues all of this body acceptance stuff must sound completely bizarre! I agree. We shouldn’t be so messed up about our bodies, but we are. So, on with step number three. For step number three Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #3…

Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #6

August 11, 2007 at 2:42 am | Posted in AA, Acid, Alcohol, Alcoholics, Amblify, Anonymous, Anorexia, Anti-depressants, Anti-psychotics, Bipolar, Bisexual, Booze, Boys/Men, Cocaine, Dead, Depression, Downers, drugs, Dyke, Ecstacy, Fag, Family, Friends, Grrls/Women, Health, Heroin, Hiding, Homophobia, Homosexual, Kristin Bell, Life, Lithium, LSD, Lunatic, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Stabilizers, NA, Narcotics, Problems, Prozac, Psych Meds, Queer, Schizophrenia, Surviving, Tips & Tricks, Trannie | 2 Comments

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I know that this next tip will wash over some of you just like water and you won’t be able to take it in. You’ll laugh or cry and think to yourself that I don’t understand or that you don’t have the strength that is needed. But, these are, afterall, tips and tricks for SURVIVING. So you know what is next. For many of us with mind-numbing depression and hopelessness it often seems like suicide is the only and best way to relieve the pain involved with living. So tip number six is: Continue Reading Tips And Tricks For Surviving A Mental Illness #6…

US Air Force Shows Lame-Assness

August 9, 2007 at 6:24 am | Posted in Air Force, Boys/Men, Discrimination, Grrls/Women, Hate, Kristin Bell, Lame-assness, Misogyny, People, Rape, Safety, Sex Offender, Shame, Surviving, US Gov't vs Lame-assness, US Government, Violence | Leave a comment

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Well, I cannot believe this one! I’m trying to limit the points for the US versus lame-assness game to one point per incident, but these incidents are just so bad I feel like awarding more points. In this incident the United States Air Force is Continue Reading US Air Force Shows Lame-Assness…

Steps To Body Acceptance #2

August 3, 2007 at 11:08 pm | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Counselor, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, Hiding, Kristin Bell, Life, Measurements, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Problems, Secrecy, Self, Shame, Social Worker, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Therapist, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 2 Comments

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Okay, I do have to warn you that this advice is not for the weak of heart. I’m not an anorexic nutritionist giving you advice about how you can lose weight and then love yourself. I have my own baggage and my own prejudices. Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #2…

Steps To Body Acceptance #1

August 2, 2007 at 3:24 am | Posted in Anorexia, Binge Eating, Body Image, Boys/Men, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Grrls/Women, Hate, Health, Kristin Bell, Life, Measurements, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Obsessions, Problems, Scales, Secrecy, Shame, Smash It, Steps To Body Acceptance, Surviving, Thin, Tips & Tricks, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 12 Comments

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Well, I thought I’d create a new series here. Not only am I a crazy person, but I also have battled with eating issues for most of my life, well, all of my life. I can’t remember a day when “my weight” wasn’t a topic of conversation or a point of shame. Continue Reading Steps To Body Acceptance #1…

Why People Hate Queers: No Idea!

July 22, 2007 at 4:35 pm | Posted in Allies, Bisexual, Boys/Men, Discrimination, Dyke, Equality, Fag, Grrls/Women, Hate, Homo, Homophobia, Homosexual, Intimacy, Kristin Bell, Pansexual, Queer, Same Sex, Sex, Straight, Trannie | 1 Comment

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I don’t understand why people hate each other for stupid things like whether or not someone has sex with someone of the same sex. Who really cares? Why do homophobic people get all up in arms and flail about saying it is disgusting and wrong? It is neither disgusting nor wrong. Well, I mean sex between two non-consenting people can be disgusting and wrong, but sex between two consenting adults…there’s nothing wrong with that! Continue Reading Why People Hate Queers: No Idea!…

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