Minor State of Depression

Anti-depressants, Depression, Kristin Bell


I don’t know why. I woke up in a bad mood today. Just feeling a little depressed. I know it will go away and I’m glad I know that. Before I would have these mind-numbing times and they never went away AND they were 2,000,000 times worse. Still I don’t like feeling blue. It is no fun. I want to clean my room and clean out my closet of my old clothes and get everything put away, but all I can manage  is  to lay around in bed trying to think about happy things if I think at all.  I feel hungry, but I can’t think of anything good to eat. I’m thirsty, but I don’t want to drink the same old stuff and it would mean getting out of bed. Not that I want to be in bed, I just don’t want to do anything else.  I should be working on stuff, but I can’t do it. It is all I can do to just vent here and I’m probably only doing this because my computer is in my bed! heh. I will feel better. I will feel better. I will feel better. I know this.  I just took my anti-depressant medications. Maybe that will help. Still, I think about how I’m a failure. I even had a dream about it last night. I also had a dream that my front teeth fell off and behind them were more front teeth! It was totally weird. Well, all of my dreams are weird.

I’ll just lay here for awhile and then I’ll get up and get something to drink to help the pills wash down. Maybe then I’ll read something. I have no patience for TV anymore. The commercials annoy me too much. I’ll be happy again really soon. Maybe by the time I get done posting this. It just has to pass. I know this. It is just bad for a few minutes/hours/etc. Mostly I don’t share these times. No one sees when I’m locked in my room alone staring at the walls. There is nothing to see really. I’m usually happy anyway. Just not at this moment.

8 thoughts on “Minor State of Depression

  1. {{{{{{ }}}}}}}

    Depression is hard. When every cell in your body and brain is telling you to stay in bed with the covers over your head it seems an insurmountable obstacle to get up and do … well … anything.

    I hope you feel more like yourself soon.

    Mama Kelly

  2. Kristin, you poor thing! Maybe you just need some rest?
    Have you been doing too much lately?

    I hope you feel better soon! Maryann

  3. Thanks Maryann. I think I’ve been doing too little lately! haha. Maybe it is because it is so hot outside. I need some rain. :) Yes, maybe I’ll go to sleep and wake up feeling better. It might have been carry-over bad feelings from bad dreams last night.

    :) kristin

  4. Dear Kristin,
    Sending warm thoughts and hugs your way (thru cyberspace, lol)
    You really are a little spot of sunshine, and I know you will be back to your happy self soon!

  5. What a dream! haha
    I barely dream. Maybe like, 4 times a year :[ It’s awful. I love dreams.

    And I think that picture of you is adorable. Your earrings make me giggle haha

  6. Does anyone ever feel like when they wakeup they’re still in a dream? Not like feeling spacey but like the events of the dream are still there although in the background?

  7. Faith: thanks!

    MR: Yes, sometimes I am still dreamy when I am barely awake, but I’m not sure if that is the same thing you experience. How much awake are you when you still feel like stuff is going on in the background? Like 5 minutes awake or 30 minutes awake???

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