Baby Kitty Zoey 11/21/2010

November 21, 2010 at 5:09 am | Posted in Cat Break, Cat Stories, Cats, Cute, Kristin Bell, Zoey | Leave a comment

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just thought I’d share some pics of my cute baby kitten, Zoey! She is such a good kitty. :) She decided to get up on my desk and sit in the middle of some tissue wrapping paper today! :) I don’t think I’ve blogged much (or at all) about Zoey. I don’t know why. I love her to death! She came to be my fur baby last year after my black cat, Kiki, died. She is about 19 months old now and full of life! I adopted her when she was just 8 weeks old! Click the images to enlarge. ;)

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Suck It Haters!

November 13, 2010 at 9:28 pm | Posted in Acapella, Allies, Bisexual, Boys/Men, Bullying, Cute, Drama, Dyke, Fag, Gay, GBLT, Glee Club, Homo, Homophobia, Homosexual, Lesbian, Music, Music Video, Pansexual, Queer, Same Sex, Trannie, Trans, Tufts Beezlebubs | 1 Comment

This video has over a million views already and the video is barely a week old. Don’t tell me that gay boyz can’t rock your socks off! Suck it haters! Long live gay boy love!!!

Steps To Body Acceptance: A Process

November 5, 2010 at 3:51 pm | Posted in Acceptance, Anorexia, Binge Eating, Body, Body Image, Bulimia, Compulsive Eating, Compulsive Exercising, Discrimination, Eating Disorders, EDNOS, Extended Plus Size, Fat, Fat Acceptance, Fat Hatred, Health, Kristin Bell, Mental Health, Plus Size, Self-Harm, Steps To Body Acceptance, Supersize, Thin, Weight, Weightloss, Weightloss Industry | 4 Comments

It has been a long while since I’ve written about body acceptance. I sort of ran out of “steps” that I could think of. For me, it really is a process. I told my therapist that when it comes to weight, weightloss and size acceptance, I feel like I am walking on a balance beam. Not quite a tightrope, but still balancing nonetheless.

Over this past year quite a lot has changed. My blood sugar levels were elevated with an A1C level of 6.3, so my nurse practitioner qualified me as diabetic. She also did other blood work and discovered that I was really low in Vitamin D and that my thyroid was off (hypothyroidism ), so I started meds for those too. I decided that I was sick of people suggesting that I get a gastric bypass, and I felt like I really could be in better shape, so with the combo of meds for my thyroid and blood sugar, watching what I eat a little more, and getting a bit of exercise, I have lost some weight.

However, I still want to maintain my outlook as one of size-acceptance. I know it seems kind of weird to say I am for size-acceptance and still be trying to lose some weight. There really is no manual for this kind of thing, so I’m just working on it as best I can. I am taking steps to improve my health. I got my A1C level down to 5.3 (non-diabetic) so far and my other labs are looking better. I’m still taking meds, but I’m TRYING to take a bit better care of my body. I know that at my size I am not quite as healthy as I could be, but I also know that I am not going to starve myself and turn into a raging bulimic again to try to maintain and lose weight (well, I really hope not at any rate!!!).

But, it is hard in some respects, because when I do make some attempt to pay attention to what I am eating, all of those negative thoughts tend to come back to haunt me. Thoughts like if I eat something “bad” I am being a “bad” person. My therapist calls thoughts like that ANTS (automatic negative thoughts). You know, some months I might gain some weight or not lose weight, and I have to be okay with that.

As a person who has struggled with weight issues all of my life, it isn’t like losing weight is just a matter of calories in and calories out. It is a whole quilt of past experiences, thoughts and feelings related to weight and how I have dealt with things throughout my life as a fat person.

So, I feel like I’m in a process of understanding how to accept myself and my body while trying to take some steps to improve my health. For me, it is important to remember that at the end of the day, the whole world drifts away and what matters is how *I* feel and how *I* can function and accept my body in this life. So, maybe I want to lose some more weight, but I still eat. I still eat “bad” stuff and I’m not ever going to live on a diet of celery, that is for sure. I don’t want to give up my life and I don’t want to give up eating. I just want to live my life the best I can!

P.S. And just so you know I am not anywhere near skinny, I have posted a picture of myself that was taken a couple of days ago! lol

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